Suspicious & Jealous of my husband - HELP

Thankyou to everyone who has responded to my plea so far. In response to Pankaj Varma, I'm not the same as Namaste (which I actually had to check wasn't a remedy!) and I don't have any cats. I have been seeing a homeopath on and off for a few years and nothing we've tried has had any real effect, I did suggest to him that we tried Lachesis but after extensive talking about my issues he keeps coming up with alternative remedies. I've tried Euphorbia Corollata, Stromonium, others I can't even remember now and have more recently been put on Phosphorous as we kind of identified a lot of my problems as being basic anxiety. I'm a real complex case, even I can see that. Thankyou to Mommers who responded with excellent advice, which I wholeheartedly agree with, I do manage to keep things 'under wraps' so to speak and have a wonderfully fulfilling life and I can totally see why my husband would want to be with me, I actually think he's pretty lucky! He would call me his 'rock' in fact I'm pretty much everyone's 'rock', I get great pleasure out of being recognised as something special, the way I look, the things I achieve, etc. I am a highly creative and artistic person, with lots of different talents (really not boasting just telling it as it is), but this one demon is beginning to get the better of me. I am really pretty positive that I am wrong, but the more you look for signs, deviations in the norm, right down to checking for stains on clothing the more I am feeling disappointed in myself. I know that if I turn out to be right, then I'll cope, I will make a new life and find someone else, but I don't want anyone else, it doesn't matter who else may be attracted to me, I only want him to be attracted to me... I'm a control freak I think! I'm the person who doles out good advice to others, I am spiritual and very positive (believe it or not). But this behaviour is affecting what I allow myself to do, not going out in case he does, not giving him any opportunity at all to be on his own, cause that's when it will happen of course, even trying to lip read when he's talking to people...I truly want to conquer this. My mother is a jealous person and also a martyr (also a supportive, loving and affectionate mum), my father is intense and expects a lot from you but also loving and supportive but in an aggressive way at times (he is also sadly now dying from motor neurone disease - which brings its own pressures of course, incidently this is when my wonderful hubby comes into his own - he is devoted to my family and will do anything for them). I am rambling....I shall stop....thanks for the support - I will speak to my homeopath and ask him for the preparation you suggested. By the way, I always find it slightly suspicious that my homeopath seems to have every remedy in his cupboard - don't these things need extensive preparation...?

Yes, the first thing that comes to mind was before we even got married, on Christmas Eve, we went out separately with our friends (in fact I did see him earlier in the evening and he was fairly merry and asked my friend for a Christmas kiss before he noticed me - on the cheek but it did vex me) then we arranged to meet back at his house later. I went back to the house (the door was always open) and went up the stairs, I got half way out and he came out of his bedroom and quickly ushered me downstairs and next door - where his brother lived. He made light of the situation and said, come on let's pop next door and have a drink...I then questioned him and said why can't we go back to your's, he made some explanation which I can't remember...he then said he was tired and he'd see me in the morning. I told his brother that I suspected that someone was in the room and we tried the door to the house which was now locked. After a time I went home. The next day again he made light of it. In time I kind of forgot, at the time we'd only been going out for 2 or 3 months but had known each other for over a year. There have been 5 or 6 other incidents during the marriage when I've felt threatened or concerned that's something untoward it going, nothing has ever been proven (in the slightest) and since my suspicious checking behaviour, still no actual evidence to suggest that he's cheated. I really actually think he hasn't. But this doesn't stop the constant suspicions and checking behaviour, I dont' want to go anywhere with him where I will see any other woman because I know I'll start to make up scenarios and read things into nothing. Why can't I be confident? I am incredibly confident in every other way.