took another dose of tarantula

I was unsure whether some good or not from this remedy. So took another dose. But as of recently I am being told daily how good looking I am by mother, since only person I have contact with. Obviously my depression much less and this must be the reason for this. But could be from platina aswell.

It feels uncomfortable when I am told this but of course secretly I like this that I know whatever was wrong before is back again.

I remember dream of tonight that I was in a car and close to me there were people working with natural gas. Releasing gas. And a guy there started smoking which made me feel like dissapearing quick. They had fun it seemed. And there would be strange colors in the air from the reactions the smoking and gas caused but no explosion. And the guys there smoking had fun.

In another dream I was in a shop and a girl came my way. So I put my sunglasses down so that she would see my good looking eyes. hmm but than she had a boyfriend with her all of a sudden