Help with extreme jealousy

Hello to all.
I have had a problem extreme jealousy for most of my life to the point it has destroyed intimate romantic relationships. I am truly hoping for help with very specific homeopathy. Currently I am on a nutritional balancing program for adrenal exhaustion, hypothyroidisim, hormone imbalance and now know there is heavy metal toxicity. I am only taking minerals and some vitamins and the correct diet for my oxidation rate. I've been on this program for 1 year and have made tremendous progress. I can feel my baseline energy increasing, confidence increasing, depression/anxiety/insomnia all much decreased. But I still experience extreme jealousy and rage and there is a direct correlation to fluctuation hormones levels. Certain times of the month but frequently the jealousy is much more difficult to handle. Sometimes at ovulation, and before the cycle when estrogen is high and during the cycle and sometimes shortly ofter when hormones are low. Very hard to get the ratio between estrogen and progesterone correct for different times of the month.
I have perceptions and beliefs that are incorrect such as
- I have to compete for love.
- If my partner is attracted to me he will be attracted to others. If he is attracted to others I know longer exist.
- I will never be enough.

In my dreams I am constantly seeking love and affection. This is the main theme of my dreams. I have a tremendous need for affection and touch. Not so much sexually which is fine but more a need for constant affection. This makes me know that all is well. I am loved ect.
But it is still never satiated.
If my partner even 'sees' an image of an attractive woman whether t.v., in public, computer, magazine ect I feel intensely jealous. I'm constantly scanning my environment when he is with me to check to see if there is immanent threat - where is he looking what is he seeing ect. When he is away I'm constantly checking time to see if its taking longer than it should whatever the errand or task for fear he has met someone and spending time with them.
This seems to me completely delusional thinking but no matter how much I intellectualize or reason this feeling is persistent.
It requires a tremendous amount of energy to live in this perception and is excruciatingly painful. Not to mention the burden it puts on relationship. When hormones are imbalance or out of ratio with each other Rage flares up in response to jealous feelings. I shut down, withdraw any love or communication and can become very mean to the point of breaking off the relationship.
There is also a direct correlation to low adrenal function and these feelings. When adrenals are week the insecure feelings are much stronger. As mentioned I am working on strengthening my organs and glands and detoxing my body of chemicals, toxins, pathogens, metals ect. But I'm sure this pattern is rooted in pre or post natal emotional occurances none of which I have a specific memory of when this started.
When I review the Bach flower remedies CHICORY fits quite well. It centers around love and feeling like I will never be loved as long as there is competition. I do not know how to love unconditionally and yet this is what I want to be able to do most in my life. I will also answer the questions down below to be as thorough as possible.











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It is important to describe all your problems in as much detail as you are able. One word answers and short sentences are not particularly helpful. Discuss each problem one at a time, providing (as a minimum level of detail) the following information.

1. What exactly happens? My partner has an interaction with an other female either through work, phone conversation related to work, images:t.v., magazine, computer and I experience extreme jealousy. If I'm having a hormone fluctuation I can become rageful, be mean, threaten to break off relationship because he is giving attention to another woman. My partner is trustworthy. This is all me but it absolutely does not FEEL that way.
2. Describe all sensations and pains. Each pain or sensation should be described in such a way that allows us to imagine having the same pain. I often will get a strong feeling in my solar plexus area (stomach), start to cry, loose my appetite, lose my focus on whatever I am doing. It feels like it consumes me. Can be hours or days until it passes.
3. What causes the problem to get worse after it has started occurring?My focus on it and all the other times it has occured and the internal reality of it.
4. What creates some relief for the problem?Distancing myself from my partner or taking some kind anti-anxiety medication.
5. What triggers the problem into occuring?The interaction of my partner with another woman in particularily an attractive woman.
6. What time of the day or night does the problem occur?Anytime
7. When did the problem start? Had a jealous nature when I was child toward my older sister. She got to do things I couldn't. It intensified in my 20's. 1st husband unfaithful. I had an affair after that. Further into adrenal exhaustion much more negative and sensitive feeling toward everything. What was happening in your life at that time?Seems this started early in childhood but WHAT I became jealous of changed over the years. Now it is predominately in relation to feeling the need for Love and that this is threatened constantly and I have to compete for love. Did some specific event or treatment take place just before the problem started?Already mentioned above.

Move from one problem to the next, doing the same thing. IT IS VITAL THAT YOU GIVE A COMPLETE PICTURE OF YOUR HEALTH BY PROVIDING ALL PROBLEMS YOU HAVE, EVEN IF NOT CONNECTED TO THE MAIN ONE, AND EVEN IF YOU CONSIDER IT OF LESS IMPORTANCE. You should address each problem separately using the above 7 questions as a guide.
Grew up in unstable alcoholic home. Father was alcoholic. I was mad at him for this starting as young as 2 or 3. One older sister they had very close relationship. I have never been aware of any conscious jealousy around this. Started using drugs and alcohol age 12 or 13. Self medicated feeling of depression and anxiety. Didn't know at time. All I knew is this made me feel better. Have self medicated all of life off and on to get energy and feel better. Married age 18 to another alcoholic, drug addict. Caught him in bed with another woman. Rage. But I used this as an opportunity to have an affair which I justified by his actions. Totally out of integrity self. Hard time forgiving myself for not leaving the marriage then getting in relationship. Jealousy did seem to intensify after this.
Also further into adrenal exhaustion - depression, anxiety, hormone imbalance, crying, moods, ect. This seem to intensify feelings. Relationship with musician untrustworthy person same person whom I had affair with.
Did not feel good about this time in my life.
Was assaulted in late 20's almost raped but was able to get away.
Several years later was in a healing session and border line sexually abused. Went into fear and couldn't move.
Confirmed my belief world is not safe, will never be loved,
men will always want sex and seek it from others beside their loved on.

As well as this, please describe any traumatic incidents that have taken place in your life. Discuss anything that has had a lasting impact on you mentally, emotionally or physically.

Discuss the way that you manage or deal with your problems, or any problems that occur in your life. I ask and pray for help spiritually and affirm what i know is true even though I may be experiencing what is contrary.

Discuss any patterns you have noticed in your behavior especially concerning your disease.

Discuss any part of your life where you feel stuck or unable to change and grow, especially where this occurred around the beginning of your disease, or as the disease evolved.

Describe your childhood and the kind of environment you grew up in, with reference to your relationships with your family, your school experiences, and any serious childhood diseases.

If your earlier discussions have not mentioned these already, please describe:

1. The specific foods that you crave (not just like) or hate sometimes sugar not that often though since being on nutritional program.
2. The specific drinks that you crave or hate coffee adrenalizes me makes me paranoid. I drink alot of water and sometimes tea.
3. What your sleep is like Insomnia much improved on program. Still have trouble during hormonal fluctutions.
4. How the weather and the temperature affects you. I do better in warm weather. I am heat intollerant and get cold easily.
5. What kinds of things in the environment you are particularly sensitive to. chemicals but not overtly.
6. What your general level of energy is like. low but climing.
7. What your level of sexual energy or desire is like. this much improved as well can no longer say this is a problem.
8. Describe your menstrual cycle between 25-28 days. been getting shorter about 3 days. have had bad PMS but this is getting better too. At ovulation can become angry, sensitive, very jealous, maybe rage. within 10 days of cycle have more anger, explosivness, harder to control emotions. On cycle and after depression, very low energy, weepy ect.