Curing ill-effects of masturbation

Age: 25
Weight: 50kgs
height: 5 feet 4 inches

I am an average guy. I am currently suffering the consequences of over masturbation. I was always short in height even when i was a child. A friend told me about masturbation and said that it helps to increase one's height. I was an immature talkative kid who was always bullied. I was desperate to grow tall and look good. Hence, i did it and kept on over doing it for the past 12 years. I suffered from myopia and had to wear -4.5 power spectacles. I underwent lazer surgery and got rid of my spectacles.
I was a very feminine kid and got bullied often, i lost many friends just because they bullied me. In fact, they were very good friends. I am a homosexual, this is the saddest part of my life. Believe me i did not choose this, this has brought more than enough sorrow in my life. Nobody around me was like this. All boys were manly and carefree. As a result, on attaining puberty when i realized something was wrong with me, I kept aloof and just got out of my house to go to school or college. I started hating sports after attaining puberty, but before that I played a lot. I didn't want this life. I wanted to be a normal heterosexual kid. But sadly things are not going to be that way. I was raised by very open-minded, highly-educated and lovely parents. The environment at my home is very good. My parents are very practical and helpful.


My problems are:
1. General weakness
2. Short height and a poor stature
3. Poor digestion and constipation
4. Indecisiveness and absentmindedness
5. Short temper (i get extremely angry and start yelling, beating up myself)
6. Poor self-image and lack of self-esteem, i actually hate myself. I get easily affected by people's reactions, tones, gestures and behaviors. I am very vulnerable to any confrontation.
7. I am always repenting for everything
8. I am always under the impression that people misunderstand me and I try to give justification for everything i do or say.
9. I drink very less water.
10. I drink too much tea. But, I am a vegetarian, non-smoker, non-alcoholic.
11. I am addicted to porn.
12. I am a good public speaker though, I have a good command over many languages. But, I have an unattractive personality, people do not prefer to befriend me as I don't fit in the 'Cool' category and have been a NERD always.

Please help me. I am totally exhausted. I am scared of my future as I know I have to live alone, since I am not capable of marrying a girl. Also, I do not want to do anything against the society.