Sex Problem now with depression

Dr I am 44 yrs old. I had malaria for many months when I was about 12 yrs old. I used to have fever . I used to take medicine and go for malaria test which used to be negative. Then again I used to have fever and go for testing after medicine which again used to come negative. Then after 3-4 months Dr asked me not to take medicine when next time I get fever. When tested I had malaria. I took course of medicine. I started masturbating from the age of 13-14 and continued till the age of 27 when I got married. I also took almost 200 ml liquor almost daily from the age of 19 years up-to the age of 28 years. After that i used to take liquor almost occasionally. When married I used to ejaculate soon after entering. I started feeling embraced. Afterwards I started having problem of impotence. Things started going on with little bit of medicine from here or there.
I had too early ejaculation and impotence and now also I am having same problem. After marriage when I had problem of Impotence and too early ejaculation, I also started having problem of depression. I started avoiding my friends and relatives. In 1998 I had mild fever for 3- months when tested for typhoid it was positive. I took medicine for that.
Then in 2001 I left the job at the age of 37 from defence. I was jobless for 3 year during which period my problem of depression kept on increasing. I got a good job in 2004 and now changed job in 2011. But I have fear/apprehensions that my seniors managers may ask me to leave the job as I am suffering from depression. I also am not able to do my job properly. I am not as active as I should be. I postpone thing/decisions. I do not feel like to talk to my seniors. I do not take any initiative from my side. I am not able take decisions/harsh decisions. I feel afraid that office staff will be against me. I feel I am not able to perform.
I have taken allopathic medicines for last 10 yrs from Various Psychiatrists but there has been no improvement. I take allopathic medicine for 8-10 months but when I do not feel improvement I leave the medicine.
I have taken homeopathic medicines also from many doctors but I am yet to get a constitutional remedy which will make me 100% perfectly healthy both physically and mentally. I have taken homeopathic medicines lik Neuphar, Agnus, China, Sulphur, Phos, AC phos, Selenium, Calad,titanium,nux vom, carbo veg, stram,psor, conium ,gels and tribulus, Yohim and many more.
Recently in the month of March I had again typhoid fever. I got course of medicine for that.
My Cholestrol is very high. B 12 level is low. TSH is more. Testerone level is low., below 150. My uric acid is high. I am taking Zyloric for uric acid and thyroxine .25 for TSH.
I am taking Crategus Q and Aconite 30 for lowering chlostrol and aconite for fear of death and apprehensions of loosing job and unnecessarily worried about future. I have got ECG and TMT done. There is no problem with my Heart.

But I still have feeling of unsecurity and apprehensions about my colleagues conspiring against me, Palpitations, feeling heart beat through the chest, chronic impotence and very early ejaculation, depressed with no interest in life, life is dull , no charm in life, no interest in family and I have lost all my friends due to depression as I never telephone them and vist them. Same is the case with my relatives. I take tadnifil for sex, but now that also has stopped working.
I also do not feel like taking bath. In fact I donot take bath and brush my teeth. My feet remain cold. I get lot of sweating . I bathh with sweating. Under fan I have to cover my body with bedsheet even in summers.

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