Fear, anxiety, depression since childhood

I am fearful person since childhood and always dependent on others low self esteem and confidence, i have chronic tonsillitis with recurrent. 2 years ago my wife cheated on me after that my fear anxiety excess and after that i feel more anxious in public like i will lose my control and heart attack will happen or vertigo will happen..i am low weight since childhood.. My weight is 55 and height is 5.10".Bone is not strong and nowadays feel more mentally and physically.. In childhood i never gone anywhere alone.. Also i want to learn driving but no confidence nowadays feel that something bad will happen and feel that i can nothing can do in life without others help.. I feel helpless and feel that i will not go ahead in my life with myself.. Plz plz suggest remedy or if need i will provide more details.but want more confidence and improve my self esteem.. And sometimes feel jealous and suspicious about everything.. And can't forget love disappointed which my wife do.. I want to remove that thoughts and want to being mentally strong and go ahead in life..Too much negative thoughts and i feel that i will sure die in near future... I take calcarea carbonica 200 ch in evening 4 drops for 12 days but no confidence improve..

I have interview on 17th feb... But i don't want to go there.. Because i can't go alone in bus.. And i can't face with confidence... When i stand i feel vertigo like i will fall, i can't sit freely in chair... Always sit hard and sit like leg on leg position...

Always nervous and fearful personality

When i walking on the road i feel that i will fall and that time i walking fast and when I reach my destination I feel relaxed... I don't know one type of panic attack or fear or actual vertigo
[Edited by Seampuredg on 2022-02-13 08:16:11]