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Hello JustSayin,
I do not have Cimicifuga with me. Its gonna take a bit longer time to reach me even if I order now due to holiday season. Could I take any common remedies instead?
My head is burning as well and I my nerves are still vulnerable to take any little stress. I am so irritated. I just want to yell at everyone around me as a defense to not to bother me. My head is heavy and I have a fear of insanity. I am physically and mentally tired.
Please suggest.
Thank you.
[Edited by depression1 on 2023-12-23 15:15:10]

Hello JustSayin,
Happy New Year to you.
I didn’t have phosphorus 30C handy , so I took a dose of Phosphoric Acid 200 5 days ago.
I feel much better than before now. My head is not heavy like before. The pressure in my head seems lowered now. I feel I am less pressured while in stress too. But I am too irritated with my husband and his immature behaviors. I can’t even stand him while he irritates me. He always argues with my teenage daughter which makes me more mad as he doesn’t show any sign of maturity while in argument with her. He just wants to control her in everything and he wants me to do the same to her, which I am against. There is a huge generation gap between these two but as a father he doesn’t show any characteristics of a nice father. That makes my daughter mad and she complains it with me which gives me so much stress. I don’t know how to handle the tensions between these two so I get frustrated all the time. They show disrespect to each other and my husband wants me to solve the isssues favoring him.
I cannot watch or see any injustice in anywhere so most of the time I happen to favor my child as she is the logical one here.
They both show me their tantrums and want me to listen to their stupid arguments. I am really done here. I just want to run away from this environment, yet I need a companionship
I don’t know what should I do. I just miss a motherly love and advice.
[Edited by depression1 on 2023-12-31 20:30:57]

Hello JustSayin,
I have been doing okay so far after the dose of Phosphoric Acid 200.
I have less irritability now. So not much bothered by my husband’s behaviors. Or I am not yelling at anybody now. I think the remedy is working good for me at the moment.
The fear of insanity is not there at this time.
I am not bothered by my father’s memories.
My nerves are much calmer than before now.
No burning feelings inside the head and I am not tired mentally and physically.
Overall I am doing much better now.
Can I take another dosage of Phosphoric Acid 200 ?
I don’t want to take any other remedies as I am afraid of losing the positive effects of the current one. Please suggest

Thank you once again for your help.
[Edited by depression1 on 2024-01-05 21:26:03]

Hello Just Saying,
How are you doing?
I had to take another dosage of Phosphoric Acid 200 the next day as I was so much irritated and sensitive to stress again the same night after I wrote to you. It was getting worse the other day so I took the second dosage.
It’s been 5-6 days now after the second dosage. But my irritation has not been improved. I still feel overwhelmed by even a little pressure inside my head. I am still not able to handle stress at all. I yell out when I feel pressured or when my husband irritates me. I can’t tolerate his too much unnecessary questioning to me.
He doesn’t trust me on what I do. For example whenever I buy some things for home, he just go replace them and gets what he thinks is good. He does that to every single thing I do. Whenever I take any decisions about managing household he interrupts and changes everything about what I do.
I want to do some work that commensurate with my education and trainings but due to not being able to handle mental pressure I fear to even apply for jobs. I avoid interviews thinking if I get the job I will still be unable to perform the task as I can’t take the pressure/stress.
Please help me handle this stress. I want to be mentally strong so nobody can dominate me or make me feel inferior.
This morning as well I had to yell and defend myself from my husband’s unnecessary blame. He was blming me that I put his stuff somewhere and I forgot where did I keep it. And actually it was him that he didn’t buy that particular stuff but the other stuff. He he kept on blaming me that I was forgetting where did I keep it. I was 100% sure that he didn’t buy the stuff that he was asking me anout. And when I told him he was accusing me for the unnecessary thing he was mad at me and yelled at me.
He often threatens me saying “Get out from my house” .
So I don’t want to hear this again and again. I want to be mentally strong I want to handle stress as a normal person, so I can really get out of his house, be independent again and live my life.
My head is so heavy, congested and my nerves are jittery at the moment. My menopause might be adding up negative emotions as well. But I just want to be strong mentally No matter what. This depressed mood and jittery nerves are dragging my energy down.
Please help

Hello JustSayin,
Thank you for your remedy suggestion.
I took a dose of Sepia 200 day before yesterday. I am feeling much better now. May be 50% better . Feeling like I am coming back to a normalcy now. I think I am slowly gaining my confidence, I am not much irritated, my nerves are not much jittery now. Not as depressed as before.
I just have some burning feeling inside my head with little bit of congestion. Feels like my brain has gone through so much (badly wounded) and slowly passing that phase to a betterment. .
Seems like remedy is acting. Hopefully I will be all fine soon.

I do not want these positive effects be temporary. Please let me know if I need to take another dose any sooner.
Will keep on updating.
Thank you once again for your kind help.
[Edited by depression1 on 2024-01-19 01:45:41]

Ok thank you.
Will keep you updated

Hello JustSayin,
Hope you are well.
I had been feeling depressed lately and I had been complaining a lot about my husband and his behaviors. I couldn’t tolerate the depressed mood anymore so yesterday I took another dose of Sepia 200 ck. I hope that is okay. I am less depressed than before now.
I hope I will be better over the time.
Thanks and Regards

Hello JustSayin,
I am feeling about 60 to 70% okay at the moment in terms of my depressed mood. But my concern is, I am so indifferent towards my husband. I do not have respect towards him, I don’t feel like being intimate with him. I do not have any feelings for him and I am afraid he might leave me because of these behaviors of mine. I can’t show him fake love or fake respect. I can’t fake anything.
One of the reasons that I don’t like him is He quarrels with my teenage daughter all the time, he wants to control her and me on almost everything. He always says “I don’t have money to spend on your demands” He has been like this since the beginning, whether he was earning $1200 a month or a way more than that now. I never liked him controlling my daughter’s life unnecessarily.
I want to be independent but I am so afraid of deterioration of my mental health that if I take any steps like finding a good job and stay away from him. I am fearful thinking that I might not perform well in the job because of my not able to handle stress easily or be anxious or panicky while I take any responsibilities at work. So these fears are always dragging me down from applying in good positions and avoiding interviews even if I apply. I am a well educated person but I am doing a labor job just because I don’t have trust on my mental health. I get panicky and stressed out easily if I feel overwhelmed with responsibilities. I am not able to take decisions because of this and am tolerating every negative things in life as I don’t have any other choice. I have very low confidence level now because of my health.
Please advise.

Hello JustSayin,
Hope you are doing well.
I am sorry I just logged into this abc forum today after a llittle gap. I had been feeling better since the next day I wrote to you last time. So I just wanted to wait and watch if I feel more better. I didn’t know about you prescribing Silicea 30 for me because I didn’t feel like logging in the forum as I didn’t want to feel like a patient while I am doing fine. I am sorry, I hope you understand what I am trying to say. I log in to this forum and write my problems when I feel helpless.

Please let me know if I still take Silicea 30 after my below mentioned problem?
Now I am helpless again:
A couple of hours ago I had a huge argument with my husband and my daughter. I have been taking care of my sick daughter for the last few days without my husband’s involvement. I was so exhausted already and on the top any of the medication I gave her (Tylenol, Ibuprofen for her cold symptoms with body ache ) didn’t seem working good. I was not sleeping well because of her sickness as I was worried for her.
Now my husband , out of nowhere in this scenario came to me and blamed me that I am not doing good and asked me to do things in his way. Where was he before, when I was so worried about my daughter, when I was there sleeping beside her when she was really really sick.
He always puts a topping on what I build with my hardwork and takes the credit.
And I am always the worst one because I YELL as my defense. When I try to prove myself Not wrong, I tend to Yell.
I feel so stuck in this environment. I just want to run away. I don’t know to where but to a nice place where nobody bugs me, irritates me. No matter what I do here, nobody appreciates it. So I get frustrated and I YELL. I don’t want be called as a failure. I always try to give 100% so I don’t fail. I yell a lot on every frustration I face due to any reasons. My head is burning due to the quarrel I had before. I am feeling helpless. I feel mentally exhausted.
My confidence level is the same(Very Low) as I mentioned in my previous post. Fearful about mental health deterioration.
Please suggest if I still take Sillicea 30 as you prescribed me before or do I take any other remedies based on above symptoms.
Thank you, I appreciate your selfless help towards me.
May all the good things come to you for this kind act towards helpless people like me.
[Edited by depression1 on 2024-03-15 02:28:12]

Hello JustSayin,
I took a dose of Staph 200 as you suggested. I am feeling much better now. There is about 50-60% decrease in hatred towards my husband. There is a less irritation now. I am not that rude to him now.
I didn’t take Belladonna as the burning sensation in the head was gone before I took Staph.
I just hope I gain positivity day by day with your help.
I don’t want to be a bad wife or a rude wife.
Please advise further.
Thank you for all your help.

Hello JustSayin,
Update:
What I have observed so far is :
I was feeling good only for one day after I took the dose of Staph 200c. It’s been 3 days now but I am still irritated on the behavior of my husband towards me. I still yell a lot. I still want to run away from this environment but is stuck because of the low confidence level and the fear of mental health deterioration.
I am still panicky when I have to do an overwhelming responsibilities.
I feel too much pressurized when I have added responsibilities on the top of what I do. I am not able to handle stress.
My husband unnecessarily shows me his bossiness.
I don’t want to be degraded by anybody.
My head is heavy and burning at the moment. I again had a heated argument with my husband this morning.
The matter was “A mistake from him, which could be avoided and saved time “
I always have to redo things that he makes blunder on and he doesn’t even consult me before he submits and finish doing things. I wanted him to show me as well so I also can review and verify if there is any mistakes, but his ego doesn’t let him do this and at the end I am always the one who has to put extra effort to correct his mistakes. I get so much irritated even in small matters now.
I am not sure, whatever I am experiencing is an aggravation from the remedy or the remedy did not work.

Please suggest.

Hello Just Sayin,
Thank you for the remedy suggestion.
I didn’t have Phosphorus 30 on hand. I had Phosphorus 200c (Phosphoric Acid 200c) with me so I took a dose of 200 potency instead, the day before yesterday night. I hope that was fine.
I am feeling okay at the moment. I don’t have anything to complain about. The hatred towards my husband has been reduced significantly. Which is a very important thing to me. I am trying my best to save this marriage. But I still have no interest in physical intimacy with my husband. It’s been 2 years now that I have lost interest in the intimacy. It may be because of my menopause.
I am hoping phosphorus 200 may help me on this aspect as well?
The feeling of being Stuck has lessened.
Overall I am okay at the moment.

I will keep you updated further.
Thank you for your kind help.

Hello JustSayin,
Hope you are well.

Update after the Dose of Phosphorus 200 c
It’s been 2 weeks that I had the dose of Phosphoric Acid 200.
I was okay for several days in the beginning and then I have had moments of sadness and Normalcy, time to time. I had been remembering all the past sadnesses in my life and was depressed.
I am okay in that matter now. But, for the last 2-3 days I have been experiencing mild pain and swelling like feeling in my uterus. Uterus is tender too when touched or pressed. I have been bloated for the last few days.
I am fatigued. Don’t want to do anything after I come back from work. Don’t want to get up and get ready for work.
My irritation is still low after I had the phosphorus(which is a good thing)
My head is slightly heavy at this moment with a little burning sensation inside.
No improvement in my Libido yet.
I am not shouting on small matters like before. Feeling of helplessness has been minimized.

Hello JustSayin,
I took a dose of Sepia 30 as per your advice few hours ago this afternoon around 1 pm.
It gave me some relief instantly at time time. But my pain hasn’t stopped yet. so far I have only felt like about 30% better. I am still in pain. There is a strong continuous pain inside my uterus or at least my Uterus area. Feels like the same pain that I was having post my Uterus Polyps surgery done in October last year.
Sometimes I feel like I am having pain in a wound and sometimes it’s like a cramp. It’s a bearing down pain. Feels like something big thing is bothering me inside.
Please help me ease this pain.
[Edited by depression1 on 2024-04-12 01:48:50]