Stronger Potency or Better Remedy? _{Page 20 of 44}

Have your symptoms changed any? Two words you used when you described your symptoms, 'disturbed' and 'irritated' really hit home, definitely fit me, though wouldn't have thought to describe it that way. And I think irritated is very fitting for me, have been that way for quite some time, almost all the time. Many times people describe me as being that way or feel that I'm irritated/upset even when I'm not, they just get that sense or that energy from me I guess, so that could be a constant psychic influence throughout life.

You know, had been to the chiropractor on Friday, and then afterwards, like 1/2 hour after was when I was at my grandmas and was eating and felt like my head got really light, and the draining feeling and sensation as if all energy was lower than head or as if head wasn't quite there or something. I know that he did some adjustments to my neck area, so that could have triggered it. He sometimes uses an activator to do adjustments.

I just had a strange sensation. It was inner ear related as if my awareness of my hearing went to the middle of my head. Somewhat like the sensation of being underwater where everything sounds weird, but not quite like that, but that's the best I can describe it. Not just right ear this time, but both ears. Only lasted a few seconds. Like a cross between the sensation you get when under water and when you go up in elevation before ears pop.

And then also have the sensation of being light, feel like my body is getting thin, like I've lost weight. And have that strange smell again. Not sure what it is, the one I described before as ether, it's like immaterial, it's energy. I always think of outer space when I smell it, it's like it's something from the spirit world or something, not here.

Also a sensation of warmth/heat in the inner ears (definitely never had that before). Frontal headache, forehead. Mild though, nothing major. Again, more like a pressing headache, pressure.

Seemed like there was also heat in the feet then. Headache seemed to move up to the top of the head for a bit, maybe a minute or two, then back down to the forehead, then back to top of head, then back to forehead. Same type of headache pain, just kind of moving back and fourth. Phlem in throat. Time now is 3:45, so all this started about 3:30 or so.

There was also some painting being done here today and not sure how much of that may have effected me. Earlier in the afternoon, felt like some of my dizziness, lightness was related to the paint. Usually I just get massive headaches from paint/fumes etc, but didn't feel like I had that type of headache today, so not sure.

Wow, that does sound like lachesis response.

Hmm, the ear symptoms, how often or ear symptoms WITH the head symptoms?

I can't say for sure, but I felt like the head and ear issues were related, but can't say that it's been often that I have the ear and head together. I usually have one or the other, but usually not together or back to back. Head then ear or ear then head etc.

Going back to childhood I had all kinds of ear infections, ear aches, ears feeling blocked up etc. And just prior to May 8th had all kinds of ear issues.

A little bit different today, because mostly it's been pain in the right ear or just a blocked feeling in right ear, but today it was both.

Let me clarify that last part. Lately as in the last couple weeks it's been just pain in the right ear or blocked feeling for in right ear, usually lasting only a short time, but neve both ears. Today it was both ears that were affected, mostly blocked sensation, not really pain at all. Might have had a little pain in right ear, but mostly the ear issue was just a blocked feeling or that feeling underwater or feeling you get when go up in elevation before pop. Not really that, but best way I can describe it.

In the past, fumes have only ever brought on headache and nausea, and I did have some nausea which I didn't mention because I know it was related to the fumes. Started painting around 11:00 or so, and ear symptoms with headache came on around 3:30 or so.

Yes, quite a challenge indeed!!

You know, the ears being an issue even back in childhood, the fear of the dark back to childhood, sensitiveness (extreme) to everything back to childhood, bedwetting, etc, possibly all psychic influence back to earliest years. Problem still is why.

Everyone who has ever talked with me about myself as a child tells me that I didn't seem like the 'normal' average child. I wasn't happy, never had those happy go lucky, care free years. Everything always serious, focused on deep issues, adult issues, grew up before my time or at least in some respects and in others lacking in maturity because I didn't have those years to grow up.

You could say that because my mom was such a mess emotionally at the time she had me (which is somewhat natural for the first child) that the fear, worry was taken on by the child (me). But I don't know that that's it either really.

Possibility that because I couldn't take mothers milk when young that I didn't get the important immuno factors and have a weak immune system and therefore don't have the same ability to fight off things, but I don't think that's it.

I thought for awhile this could all come down to the feeling of not being loved, but you would think Nat Mur would have brought a different response.

Interesting you talk about 2 minds. This being different than the 2 wills like Anacardium? I have been telling people for years that I feel like I have two brains, because I swear I can think more than one thing at a time. They say it's not possible to be thinking about two things at one time, but there are many times where I feel like I can think of two different things at once, especially at times when I can't stop thinking about something, can't get it out of my head, I'll try to start thinking about something else and I feel like while I'm thinking about something else it doesn't totally cut off the thoughts about the other thing, but it keeps it in the background, but I swear it's more than thinking one thought and when that thought is over thinking of the other one. I feel like I can actually think about both thoughts at the same time.

Hmm, I can't say I've noticed anything recently with the sweating, so not sure.

Today I was doing fairly well, was at chiropractor again and did some adjustments. I think it was the 4th or 5th dorsal vertebre that was anterior instead of posterior or vice versa. It's the vertebre that was connected to the heart, lungs, liver. Well, not too long after the appointment, started coughing, then was okay, and happened a little later, kind of out of nowhere. This is going to sound odd, but it almost seems like it's fungus.

Around 7:45 (chiropractor is near my grandmas, so I stopped there and ate) was watching TV and all of a sudden felt a major shift in my energy or something, again like energy moved to the upper part of my body. It is almost a feeling of the floor moving away from me. You know the old tease the animal with food on a string or carrot on a string or whatever and they keep moving it away from them so they can never get it. Well it's a feeling like that with the floor or my feet moving away from me, like I can't get/stay grounded and my energy is in the upper portion of my body. So anyway, around 7:45 I get kind of that feeling like everything is moving away from me or that I'm moving up in the air away from everything, like I'm going to come out of my body, and I shoot up, almost out of my chair, like bolt up, because I'm scared, somehow fear, being terrified keeps me in my body.

Was scared driving home, thought I was going to die, asking God not to take me yet. Feeling like it's my time again, going to die. Feeling like I have to be conscious every single second to have my mindset set on staying alive. Like I feel like the only thing keeping me alive right now is my will and that if I decided for even one second that I was giving in to whatever this was, I'd die. Every second I have to be on guard, ready to fight. Can't let it take me, whatever force is working against me. Because I do feel like it's something that is trying to harm me, kill me, hurt me, whatever. Sometimes feel like my energy is being taken away from my body, bits and pieces, parts of me are being taken, stolen, leaving my body, or whatever. Weird thing is that I feel sometimes later like it comes back. And this is part of the alternating between lightness and heaviness. As if my energy is being torn apart and put back together, but problem is that I don't feel like anything good is coming of it. In some respects I think, 'okay, maybe something is working to heal me,' but on the other hand it doesn't feel like anything is really changing or getting better.

Feel like I'm all over the place, as if on a ship again, rocking all ways, this way, that way. As if I was tilted one way, tilted another way. Almost like in addition to the rocking, the world I live in isn't level or I'm not level or something, You know, as if you were on a floor or something that the one end was lifting up and it wasn't level and you were sliding downhill or something because you can't stand on a hill. Feel like I'm not totally solid, physical. Like the whole earth is just swashing back and fourth like on a boat in turbulent waters. Like my surroundings are moving like that, like I'm moving somewhat like that, but in a different direction. Like my sense of placement, position, appropriate reaction/response to gravity is not normal or something.

Though it may just be tinnitus, the ringing in my ears that started soon after the may 8th incident, I still feel like it's a high pitch frequency related to the psychic influence that's affecting me.

Slept pretty good last night, had a dream, but can't remember it. Like on waking I knew I was dreaming something, but can't remember anything at all about it.

Prior to May 8th, when it was just my chronic pain, I had the sensation or feeling that there were something sucking my life force energy out of my, like something was just draining my nervous system of energy or something. So I imagine it might be the same type of thing now, only a different feeling just because of whatever happened on May 8th.

When sensation where I feel like I'm going to die if I'm in my car, again have the feeling like I need to get my destination. Get very angry/impatient with other cars on the road, just want to hurry, get to where I'm going. Irritated, have no time for other people, waiting on others, dealing with others.

Also have been very worried lately when driving and particularly in evening/night of being shot at, assassinated. Have had that my whole life too though. Scared when walking down street and cars passing by, worried somebody is going to kill me. Don't usually have that feeling when driving, but the last couple days, I believe since the sulphur dose, have been having that feeling. Again though, I don't know if it's that same sense of something being wrong and I'm just thinking to the most logical way a person in a car could hurt me. Not sure. But definitely worried about every person who pulls up next to me. Like I'm just waiting for them to take a shot at me or something. Always ready to drive through the red light just in case.

Well, I get those sensations at home sometimes too, got them at my parents house several times. And used to get them all the time when I was around Annette. It seems when I'm around people I'm close to it happens MORE!

My grandma always complains of dizziness when I'm around, and her symptoms only started (her dizziness)after my episode on May 8th. Also, the nighbor next to her house, out of the blue started complaining about dizziness, again, after the incident with me.

We were watching a movie that was a thriller, but the other thing is, the TV is closer than mine at home, I still think geopathic stress has an effect on me. Yeah, letting guard down, I'm not sure.

I had burritos (just heated up some beans in a pan and cumin, onions etc. and put it into wraps), that's all. Nothing else. And have eaten that before without incident. I do generally feel worse at her house though, there are times when I feel that if I'm bad to begin with I don't want to go there because I feel worse, like there is energy there or something that bothers me, cause I do always feel more dizzy, rocking when I go.

I was okay last night after this episode, so it wasn't like I've been going crazy with fear/panic attacks or anything since. I don't know if I was better from the Sulphur or if it's still because of the pendulums. I still think that it was the pendulums more than the remedies.

Got Lachesis 30c, am going to see what I can find in Stramonium at the health food store next door to work here, just so I have some things on hand.

I am convinced this is purely spiritual. Not that there are not physical, mental, emotional components,, but I think the reason a remedy seems to work at first is because we're hitting the physical, mental, emotional, but not strong enough to deal with the spiritual issue that's trickling down into these other manifestations.

I tried something different with my testing last night and I tried testing with the intention that I wanted to get to the central issue causing everything, the root of all that is wrong with me, and guess what I got? PINEAL GLAND (Crown Chakra).

I'm getting that it's an inherited issue (DNA), genetic, so very very tough to treat. I'm getting that there is VOLITION (something that I'm not able to overcome), connected with a CURSE. Pineal has to do with INTUITION and RECEPTION. So, from this I would describe it as there is a ENERGY that I'm receiving that is causing me harm, but it's something that I'm not able to defend myself against properly or deal with. I found all the imbalances in my body and I then checked after holding the Pineal Gland and they all become non issues.

I know homeopathy doesn't look at X remedy for X organ/system/gland, so I'm not sure what can be done about it. But, it explains why my testing gets blocked, because when I do my energetic testing, it's on a somewhat intuitive basis and if I'm using the Pineal Gland to do so which is already severely stressed, weakened, and also very subject to psychic influence, this creates all kinds of false positives (ie, like my testing that there is a tumor in my brain. What could be worse than thinking I have a malignant tumor in my brain. All this stuff I've been getting that is coming up, is purely my worst fears triggered by this psychic influence). At least that's what I'm thinking anyway.

Slept good last night. Dreams about trying to help people with my kits/vials. Everytime I was close to finding the answer to help the person, my vials were breaking and I was losing the contents, so I couldn't make a remedy that would help the person.

Quite interesting considering I have this feeling/experience in life as if something is happening to prevent me from getting better.