Stronger Potency or Better Remedy? _{Page 43 of 44}

Oh, and how quickly I forget, it did seem like at times I got less irritated by things, and not as jealous. Jealousy (mostly relationship wise) having been a big issue for me over the years, leading to anger/rage. I get this from my mom.

In the apartments where I live, the roof was leaking, so the guy was in today to do the rest of the fixing up of the inside of the apartments. My closet was leaking which was in my living room and the guy did the work while I was at work all day. So the paint fumes are very very bad. It's super cold outside, but I have my windows open and a fan going to try to get some fresh air in. In addition to the usual headache I get from chemicals I'm also feeling extremely light (much lighter than normal). So I'm thinking the paint may have something to do with it.

No, it was not, a few of the remedies were, but not this one.

Had a dream last night that I was checking out my apartment that I just rented and I went inside and was just so happy because it was like perfect, just like I wanted. And it was I think the same apartment (location) I have now, just didn't look the same.

Also this morning when I first woke up I had to go outside for something and when I was walking I felt as if the lower part of my body was cut off. I mean I could feel my feet and legs, but still felt like they weren't quite all there. And was somewhat afraid because I didn't feel grounded, like I was really touching the ground.

Okay, first major thing I noticed was feeling like my whole world stopped, as if time had come to an end. My existence was over. I was going to die.

Sensation as if everything in my head had gone or left. Everything in head had stopped (This was different than before though).

Yes, and I have had the sensation before from other remedies. Also just feeling very light, feeling like I'm disappearing, like my body is very thin or that I'm not physical. All of this have had before.

Head feeling super light again, lighter than air, almost as if it's not there. As if I had no head. Nothing new.

I do think it aggravated because it seemed to take much longer to get any responses and I didn't get such a wide variety of symptoms like the first time.

I also noticed about 3/4 of the way down my leg (from the knee, half way down, but on the back side)there is a very sharp nerve pain at one particular spot definitely on the back of the leg, but closer to the edge/side of leg. And hurts very much just from clothing touching it.

I can't say if I've ever had this EXACT pain before. I don't think quite like that at this particular spot. But with my chronic pain I didn't have some nerve type pains and pain from my clothes touching my skin, however this is very very sharp.

Now it seems to be a sharp burning (definitely nerve) on the the side of my left leg, again 3/4 down but seems to be a bigger area.

Had been staying out of my living room all day (where the paint was) and had been feeling okay, nothing really new. But then about half an hour after being in living room I had a slight headache, nausea, and now I'm feeling extremely light again, so kinda thinking that the fumes are affecting me so I've got the windows open again and the fan going to get some fresh air in.

Pretty much just major aggravation, feeling light as air mostly being the one.

At the same time, the other day I had a really different perception when I went to visit my parents and could actually see (aside from the nagging) that they do actually care about me. And that's been something that has been an issue my entire life, feeling like my parents don't love/care abou tme. It was like everything shifted as if I was seeing things in a different way.

Well, I had a very good/very positive visit with my parents after the first one. And then the last time I was down and felt like they actually cared about me was after the second dose.

Also this evening, had this taste of blood in my mouth. There was none, but I kept checking I thought for sure there had to be. That's the only way I can think of to describe the taste that I got. And, I've never had that before. (at least not when I didn't actually have blood that I was tasting)

It's Dolisos pellets, which I believe was bought out by Boiron.

The lightness, feeling like my body is getting thinner, disappearing, lacking physicality is so random. I have tried to find a tie to a particular cause or trigger, but just can't seem to find anything. Eating till the point of stuffing myself does seem to help, but not always, and when it does, doesn't always last long. It's so odd.

So far tonight, I've noticed a similar reaction as yesterday, seems I got lighter in the evening. This time I got light and then noticed heart palpitations, racing heartbeat, and seemed to get even lighter, then felt like many other parts were empty/hollow like my chest area/sternum, lungs, throat.

Sensations as if my heart was beating in my throat. Later I had lots of aching in the legs, seemed like it was nerve related, again a sensation as if the nerves had been destroyed. Then also some weird tastes again in the mouth, not really like blood, more like a dirty taste, but not exactly sure how to describe it.

Also had a sensation of a cold draft of air blowing over my feet and lower half of my legs. Mostly from the shin down. Started out just left leg, then seemed also some right leg as well. Sharp pain in right ear. Burning in penis.

Other than some of the new areas feeling empty/hollow, I have had all this before. And really I may have at one point or another had some of those areas, hard to say, but still not a new symptom, just new location if indeed new.