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I actually only have a 12c and of course a 30c, nothing higher.

Certainly can get higher potency of Nat-Mur though. Also, just feel like I should tell you if you think Phosphorus or other seems to really fit, don't hesitate to suggest just because I've taken it before, I'm certainly willing to try again, I don't think I've ever noticed quite a response before like I've had with the one dose medorrhinum, because I clearly felt it working for days, just knew it was really acting deep, never quite got that response before from other remedies, but had always been taking multiple doses before. Plus the higher potencies of Phosphorus that I took (1M, 10M) I've come to realize were not reliable sources. Got them from a doctor who made them from radionics machine (frequencies), and just feel it's not the same thing that it doesn't have the same effect.

John, along with the list you gave me to have on hand (I do have Nux V. 200c, Phos 30c, Nat Carb 12c on hand in pellet), do you want me to order Medorrhinum also in 200c and 1LM? And if we're going to be making remedies, would it be okay to get liquid dilutions?

I've got 2 oz dropper bottles (amber) that I was using to make my remedies from the kits/vials (isopathics). I will certainly get a 4 oz though, have distilled water and I have Brandy that I use to preserve the remedies, will that work or should it be vodka?


Okay, as to condition, last night around 11:00 I had the same feeling develop where all of a sudden I had the feeling light, feeling like something happening in my head/brain (same as before, kind of a numbness and fear as if my brain was not going to work or shut off or something). Feeling again like my body was transparent or that I was going to be able to see through it or that it was disappearing. Seemed to be a little worse this time, so sleep was a little worse at first, couldn't get to sleep till 2:30, but then when got to sleep slept very good and this morning woke up and symptoms were much better as far as feeling heavier.

Last night around 8:00, was in my car driving and was stopped at a light and had this sensation of heaviness, but also a feeling that I was going to come out of my body unless I was able to keep moving, so it was like, I was grabbing the steering wheel really tight as if holding on for dear life, and then when moving again it was better. Rocking sensations was greatly increased. I've had this before, and generally when the rocking is worse, being still in a car makes it worse, and continued driving forward makes it better.

If you've ever heard of the method where people test themselves on products to see if they supposedly are good or not for their body by holding the product and then closing the eyes and then you usually get a sensation of either falling forward or falling backward or staying the same if it's neutral, well it's that same exactly feeling, that force or whatever you feel when you fall forward or back, I feel it constantly in my body moving around almost chaotically, like sometimes I feel it in my head pushing forward or back, sometimes in the chest area.

The other sensation when I feel light, like last night is different and I wish I could figure out a good way to explain it, again sweating of hands and feet was increased. Almost as if I were shedding my body or something (going to come out of my body), nothing feels physical, seems physical and like part of me is moving but my body is not compounded with a feeling like the environment is moving, but can't tell if it's that or if it's me moving.

Sometimes feel like I see bugs crawling on the floor, something moving, (only out of the corner of my eye, not from my actual from line of sight vision), but then turn my head to look and see nothing is there. Also one time I almost thought there was some kind of animal jumping out from the corner of the room, again, seeing from the peripheral vision out of the corner of my eye, and it was just a basket that we have sitting in the corner. The bug thing seems to happen more than the animal thing. But objects do tend to jump or look like they are rising and falling. Like having my arms sitting on a table, feels like the table is rising up and down or that my arms are bouncing off the table, just like when I feel like my feet do that on the floor sometimes.

Tough to say as far as environment, do feel that symptoms might be worse in the city/large area. Nothing noticeable though as far as consistent better or worse though. Does seem to be worse sometimes higher up, like rocking somewhat worse on second floor of house than on first floor, and worse the higher up I go. But can't really say beyond that.

Yes, primarily noticing (bugs/animals) out of corner of right eye, right side. Never left side. Well the basket that seemed like a dog or animal or something that was more scary than the bugs, cause it seemed like it was coming towards me, jumping out of the corner right towards me. But there is a sense of anxiety, stress, being startled, maybe some fear, but more nervousness/startled rather than all out panic. I tend to get startled easily by a lot of things, so my first reaction is to tend to jump, tense up.

Been looking around, carcinosin looks more difficult to get than thought it might be. I checked out helios in the UK and they only have it as low as 18c and the LM potency only starts at 3LM. Didn't even see it listed at Hahnemann Labs. Have a friend who is a nurse, might be able to get her to call it in for me at Washington Homeopathics. Are there any remedies you feel that are more important at this time to get than others, it is a lot (financially) to order, but certainly willing to give it a shot.

P.S. Jacob, I do appreciate your response and input.

Okay, John, thanks, never would have found them (Ainsworths). Good source. Everything ordered (Financial basics list) including 4 oz bottles.

Around 3:00 had another sensation of the heaviness, lots of rocking this time, almost difficult to walk straight because feel like I'm being rocked back and fourth side to side. Along with that have that fullness sensation I mentioned before like I would explode. Another way to describe it would be that I feel as if not that I'm necessarily going to come out of my body but my body is going to blast off into the air, you know, like superman or something. Immediate reaction is somewhat of panic/fear, like go to grab something, to hold on, and of course sweating of the hands. Nothing unusual going on circumstance wise (ie, not being confronted or upset about something, etc.)

Couldn't sleep again until 2:30, seems to be a growing trend. Last night though I gave up trying to sleep in bed and slept on the floor, sounds crazy, but feel asleep right away then. Don't remember having any dreams.

Last night had a craving for apple juice. I hadn't had that for a couple weeks, not at all since remedy.

John, something else I just thought of and probably should have told you sooner, but just thought of it now. Probably somewhere around 2003/2004 started having issues with the enamel wearing down on a tooth on the bottom left side of the mouth. Seemed like it was getting progressively worse, wearing down, and then noticed more teeth recently same side, same area were also getting the same way, as if something were eating away at the bone. More around the edges of teeth at bottom near the gums. At first they look like they have gray spots on them where the enamel is wearing down. Just feel that my body is demineralizing or something. When this first was going on, had dreams that my teeth were all falling out.

Never had any cavities, so it's only just been general cleanings. Had flouride treatments when younger, would make me so sick, would go home and throw up afterwards.

Sensations today, tend to be somewhat status quo. Have normal heaviness, more rocking, but don't feel like going to come out of body. When I have the heaviness, even if I do feel like I'm being pushed or pulled or something in any kind of direction it feels like my body is going to go with it at least. When I'm feeling lighter, it feels like I'm going to actually be separate from my body. And again, have heaviness (normal) in head which corresponds with heaviness of body. Seems like when the lightness comes on, the lightness of head always happens first.

Maybe a little bit of fullness in the sinuses. I think this is something I don't take notice to as much, but people are always asking me if I have a cold, I guess because I sound sinusy, even if I don't feel/notice it.

When I can't sleep, my predominating disposition is impatience. I tend to get frustrated if I don't fall asleep right away, restless. I'm not one to be physically restless, but when sleep doesn't come, I change positions a lot, get frustrated, sometimes if it goes on for awhile I get angry/upset. Wasn't the case last night, but sometimes will have to get up and walk around or move around, and do something, can't lay there trying to sleep. And of course it's worse when I have the lightness and feeling scared/afraid.

Thinking about being frustrated reminds me of not in this situation, but in times of frustration, despair, not knowing what to do, sometimes I just get so I don't know what you call it, but I just want to snap, just want to scream, clentch fists, but don't actually scream out loud, more just directed internally.

Forgot to add: Do have a family history though on both sides of bad teeth, cavities, gums, crooked, etc.

My gums have always bled easily, and always had sensitive teeth as well, mostly to cold, and of course especially going from one extreme to the other, something hot, to something really cold. Sugar also tends to cause pain in teeth.

Also I think all the saliva has an effect too. My mom is the same way, tends to have a lot of saliva, drools in sleep and if laying the head a certain way during sleep as I usually do, it tends to accumulate on that side. Mom has the same problem with teeth on particular side.

Notice it most in things that are fairly highly concentrated in sugar like jelly (no sugar added). Usually when the sugary food gets directly onto the spot. I really don't eat any refined sugar. Sometimes juice bothers me too but it can also be if it's cold and getting it right on the spot. It's usually a sharp nerve like pain. One of those sharp pains that go right through you so to speak, referred, you just feel it through the nerve.

A few days ago noticed this sensation. All depends how I chew and if I get food on that side.

Yes, only left side on bottom. If you check out these tooth chart links:

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http://www.royalrife.com/dental1.gif

It's numbers 21 through 18, with number 19 being the worst and 18 at a close second, all at the bottom of the tooth near the gums.

Today I feel like I have more desire to drink water. Was the same way last wednesday. Also something, when I do usually get thirsty enough that I want to drink lots of water, it doesn't take much for me to feel bloated right away and get sick on my stomach from even 8 oz of water, which often happens, but happened today and it reminded me.

Something else, I would say even two or three days ago, I had the feeling/sensation as if Medorrhinum was working deep in my system. I don't know how to describe that I knew that, just knew, and today, I just feel like it's done, like it's not doing anything, I just feel different, and I can't describe how I feel different other than to say I just don't feel it anymore.

Got very tired early last night, maybe even as early as 8:00. So went to bed early last night and slept almost right away, and slept straight through till about 6:30 in the morning then got back to sleep again until had to get up.

This morning, woke up with the lightness in the head, and of course the dizziness that goes along with that. As well as the strange numbness or congestion in the brain or feeling like it would stop working.