Stronger Potency or Better Remedy? _{Page 42 of 44}

The reason we went to Phos-ac 200c after 30c was because I had noticed a very good initial response from the Phos-ac 30c. Within seconds of taking the remedy (30c) I had increased fullness returning to my feet so I felt more grounded, not that I was kind of floating across the floor or not quite touching the ground (difficult to describe), and there was increased heaviness of the body too, which I often feel as light as air (occured after a severe fright/shock). But it didn't last long. It started at the feet though and worked up the body. The Lachesis was more of a whole body at once feeling of return of normal weight, but then it would fluctuate back and fourth between lightness and heaviness, like my body was REALLY trying hard to maintain the normal heavy feeling, but it couldn't do it. But it was the first time I've ever had the sensation return/come back as often as it did.

Speaking of weather changes, I have to say that I didn't really think about it, but it's pretty cold out and by this time I would normally be wanting to wear my winter jacket, I have always been one to be cold all the time. But it hasn't been bothering me as much. I think it has something to do with the flashes of heat in the body.

You're welcome :) So what do you suggest Jacob? Any thoughts?

P.S. I have not taken Arsenicum Album. Had taken Phosphorus 12c and that also seemed to really exacerbate the sensation of lightness of body. After Phosphours I thought to myself I never want to take that remedy again and it was interesting to note I had a similar response to the Cenchris (which I forgot to mention John), just feeling like I never want to take that remedy again.

No, sorry, I've been working with John to try to find what is going to help these unusual symptoms that I'm having. Feeling light as air, feeling like I'm going to come out of my body and die. All started after May 8, 2005 with a severe fright/shock/terror.

And since that date also, it seems that I have such sudden symptoms that come and go, and of course from remedies too, that's why I post so much with the symptoms because they change so much. I get responses form remedies seconds after I take them. Don't know if my body is just hyperreactive or what.

Actually just very frustrated, tired, miserable, unhappy and trying to get better :( I just want my life back is what I'm trying to do :(

I was trying to find answers to my chronic pain which also seemed to respond hardly at all no matter what I tried and started getting into metaphysical things, dowsing, psychic readings etc. So I was messing around with dowsing and doing stuff I shouldn't have been doing (trying to clear a friend of an entity) and must have invited some kind of entity/spirit into my presence. I'm very sensitive to energies and I could feel the presence of something very evil and felt like I was being attacked. Shortly after the initial incident when that happened (I could tell right away something happened and dropped my pendulum) then walked away and started getting this tingling sensation throughout my body as if low blood sugar or something. And then just like that I had a feeling like I was being sucked out of my body, like I was going to die. I grabbed onto the corner of the wall where I was and I was kicking and screaming, trying for dear life to hang onto my life. I was so scared. Afterwards I was shaking uncontrollably, scared, cold, it was the most traumatic thing I've ever experienced in my life.

Also my personality on here is quite different than my personality in person. I'm very shy, insecure, quiet. Don't talk much!! Despite all my posts here. I love to write and really don't express myself well at all unless I'm writing. I've always been a loner, avoiding company, people just drain me. I like people, but I don't like crowds, one or two people at a time who I am close to, but when there are lots of people around I get fatigued, drained, mentally, emotionally and physically.

And I think I have always tended to jump around like I do on here, saying one thing than another. I always joke and tell people that something little that they said always stands out and that's where I come up with the idea to talk about such and such. Example. If somebody were talking about a new car they just bought and that's the general topic, let's say that their car is Green and I hear green and CLICK my brain reminds me of some story involving something green (usually some very minute detail, but it leads me to another totally different thought process). And so I bring up this totally unrelated story because the color green of the car triggered my memory of something I thought I just had to tell everyone. Have always been that way even before May 8th.

Also have always had trouble if that's what you want to call it dealing with the physical world so to speak. My mind has always been off somewhere else, dreaming, thinking, imaginging my life the way I want it to be compared to how it is. I don't like to deal with worldy tasks. Money while not having enough depresses me, it doesn't really motivate me either. I tend to avoid taking care of physical responsibilities due to feeling overwhelmed with spiritual/emotional issues. Have always been somewhat ungrounded I'm sure.

I took Lachesis on the 18th and it was just one dose. 3LM pellet in 4oz of water, and one teaspoon.

But I also took Cenchris last night (30c). So things are really stirred up right now.

And the Cenchris did bring about somewhat of a similar fear/paranoia like I had some months after May 8th.

No, I'm not a homeopath. This was recommended. Don't want to start any debates between people helping me. Because I appreciate everyone who is trying to help. I'm just trying to get better.

P.S. Would certainly love to be a homeopath though. Totally fascinates me.

I had made notes after taking the remedy because my reactions are always so wide/varied and ever changing.

These were all immediate within I'd say 1/2 an hour of taking the remedy (other than the dream at night).

First something with my head, I think it was light for a little bit and then turned into a headache, a little bit different than ones I've had in the past, but still seems like it was a pressure type headache.

Increased tingling in the feet, the electrical current sensation.

Pain in the stomach, like I've had before. Lasted maybe half an hour to 45 minutes.

Sensation of the body being turned to the right/left, mostly toward the right. I've had this sensation before, not sure if it's a vertigo, but feels like the body is being spun but only part way.

Pains in the muscles, mostly the upper right thigh, in the middle. Later the left. Kind of a cramp type pain. Can't say that specific area has bothered me before at least with that type of pain, but with all the muscle pains and stuff I've had over the years, nothing new I'm sure.

Worsened the pain in the right groin. (This is the pain that started before all my other muscle symptoms spread throughout my body. It is a pain like there, gnawing, like something were inflammed, or swollen in the right groin. Sometimes even a sensation as if something were gangrene or rotting or something. Before all my other muscle pains, the tendon there tensed up/contracted and then stayed that way and then started spreading throughout the body. At any rate, the Lachesis, definitely worsened that. That pain of course was before May 8th, about 7 years before).

Itching sensation in abdomen on right side above the left hip, maybe two inches or so. There was also a split second where I thought I felt a sensation of warm water rolling/flowing over that spot, but mostly it was the itching.

Tension in the muscles - nothing new.

Sensation for a short while of the feet (when I was sitting and had my legs stretched out, so the feet were resting on the heels with the bottoms of the feet not touching ground) being pulled toward the floor.

The cramp type pain in the right thigh turned from feeling like a cramp to more feeling like it was nerve related and feeling as if the nerves were destroyed. I used to get the feeling of my nerves being destroyed with my chronic pain. It would be a random thing, where one day I would feel fine (still have the pain) but the next day it would feel like somebody had totally destroyed my nerves, like they were ripped up, like I was ready to snap or have a nervous breakdown or something.

Left leg on the outside (thigh area) pain along the nerve, not sure if like a sciatica type pain, but definitely a nerve related pain.

Prickling in bottoms of feet to the point of being very painful. Do you know the sensation when you put hydrogen peroxide on something and it does that bubbling and fizzing and the little things/sparks or whatever jumping and hitting your skin and it stings. It's exactly like that only stronger.

Then pain in the left hip.

Got very tired last night too very early. Slept fairly well.

Dreams where I shot a gun and woke my parents up in the early morning and went and hid, was afraid they would find me and then they found me and my dad yelled at me and said it was all because of my low self esteem.

Something else that seemed to happen was that I became more aware of my body and my not being totally connected to it, like the feeling of being out of body, I always had that to a degree since May 8th, but it was like I was more conscious of the fact that yes, that's DEFINITELY what is going on.

And also the other thing since the Lachesis was the body feeling heavier more regularly, the heaviness returning more.

I can't really say I noticed anything personality wise. There were a few times where I might have been a little more social than usual, more outgoing, but other than that, nothing really mentally, or feeling better about myself or anything.

Initially I seemed pretty good after Lachesis, then two days later, started getting worse as far as the fear, anxiety, panic, sweating of the hands, lightness of body, sensitivity to energies. Couldn't sleep, afraid I was going to die. Also had an incident where I felt like there were marks in my skin, and they were deep grooves, I could feel them I know I wasn't imaginging it, and thought it was related to an evil spirit or something. Had this issue after May 8th, so it may have brought that out again. Not sure.

Umm, I would say 95% was old. The only thing new would have been the sensation of feet being pulled toward the ground, like a feeling of gravity taking over, literally pulling them toward the floor.

The increased and more frequent return of overall body heaviness (normal weight) was new.

And the feeling of being MORE sure that I was disconnected from my body was new.

Very interesting point about not paying so much attention to the action of the remedy. Because I'm just always that way. I have always been extremely in tune with my body and energetic changes and things that happen.

Which probably is why symptoms are better when I'm occupied (have less time to think). Not that they totally go away, there's still something going on.

Oh, and how quickly I forget, it did seem like at times I got less irritated by things, and not as jealous. Jealousy (mostly relationship wise) having been a big issue for me over the years, leading to anger/rage. I get this from my mom.